puntaprima

Compelled to return to Punting

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Hello all

Its been a while since I posted here, and I've had some good times writing over the years but I really had no need to continue after meeting my beautiful girlfriend on a punt 3 years ago.

I managed to help her on her way back into a more 'normal' job as that is what she wanted, and she has never escorted since - her choice not mine !
Over the 3 years we have enjoyed a mad passionate on / off relationship we have had so many amazing times and travelled to many countries together :) 
Its not always been easy, but it has been worth it and enough to keep me very happy indeed.

But.....sadly she's gone away working overseas for 6 months, and so I feel forced return to punting  again....I will explain why later.
I certainly had many great punts in the past, and indeed if I wasn't punting I'd have never met this lovely girl who I truly love.


With her being so much younger, and given how I met her, I have always had to accept that she will occasionally be tempted to stray and sleep with other guys when she is away from me. 
It may sound mad, despite being easy at first, this has become more difficult for me to accept as time has gone by, but I always manage to forgive her because she's too good to lose, 
and, despite her misgivings, she does love me, but finds any distance between us difficult to handle, even more so than I do

And now to the present...

She's recently admitted to sleeping with 2 guys since being away, because she tells me she is young and needs a release, to 'express her sexuality',
and because she misses me so much and is used craving my attentions. She cannot come home and I cannot go there, she's just too far away this time.
In some ways I can understand her reasoning, because if I was her age again and in her working environment, I too would feel the same, and not be able to wait for sexual gratification with someone so far away, especially when temptation is everywhere when loneliness sets in.

As you can gather I am a lot older than she, but tbh that is irrelevant as when we are together everyone just assumes and accepts us as an item wherever we go.

Now I have always been a loyal guy and never cheat on girls, so when she told me initially of her infidelity it did hurt a little, but it’s what I expected at the back of my mind.
What I didn't expect though was for her to have sex without using protection. She isn't even on the pill.
The first guy gave her Chlamydia and she has just finished her course, then last night she basically gave herself away to another guy and freely admitted it to me even though she knew I would once again be a 'little hurt' - but at least she is honest and assured me that this time she used a condom as she had learned her lesson. She told me it was just sex and she didn’t enjoy it and it didn’t fulfil her like only I do, and basically said she just needed some skin on skin and to be kissed and treated nicely' 

 

Now I can live with this because when all is said and done I met her punting and I was her customer, however that was well over 3 years ago, and yet I find myself still waiting for her to realise what she has and for her to respect herself. Many people think that these girls will always be damaged goods, and yes that may be the case. 
However I still hope and believe that one day she will respect herself more and understand what fidelity means, even though most people find it hard to practice themselves.
But then again, it must be so difficult for her to do that, knowing that the majority of her old customers were married and living a double life that their wives knew nothing about.
So is it any wonder why she would find it so difficult to believe any man can be faithful to her. Perhaps that is the reason she cannot fully commit or remain faithful in any distance relationship, but I cant say for sure. Its very sad in some ways, yet I still accept her and want her in my life because she is amazing in so many ways, but perhaps a little cynical in her own head and I just have to live with that and try my best to help her feel wanted and that not all men are deceivers. It is difficult at times, but I'm so glad I have her in my life, even though not in this present moment.

My dilemma for the last few days has been what to do while she is away, taking into account her latest admissions. In an ideal world I don't want to have sex with anyone else and could easily wait for her to return. After admitting this to me, and asking me on chat to make her cum cos the guy couldn't fulfil her, she actually said she wouldn't mind me sleeping with regular women if I needed to while she was away, yet said she would certainly not accept me sleeping with Escorts again !!

I found this very strange, considering that most Escorts only perform safe sex and in my experience are cleaner and safer, not to mention more enjoyable, than the civilian women you may meet in bars and clubs. And she used to be an Escort herself practising Safe sex. She knows exactly how I feel on this matter too, yet insists I don't see Escorts. 
One thing I do know is that I have never caught an STD in my life and I have seen many many escorts, yet she has random unprotected sex once and ends up with an
STD from a civilian guy. I think therein lies the answer.

Now I feel compelled to punt as its the only way I can accept her doing what she is doing to me. In a perfect world she wouldn't, but life is the way it is and I cannot allow myself to lose my mind over this I feel, so I have only one option now.

I went for my first punt in years today :) it was very satisfying, though I will admit it was nothing compared to my girlfriend, but I expected that to be the case.

Now should I be honest with her and tell her I punted or not, that is the question???...... mmm  :wacko:

 

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Sorry, skin on skin and craving the attention from you she misses. Bullshit, she is a mouse away and having fun with the play knowing full well that mr knight in shining armour wants to believe her when she says she didnt enjoy it. She is literally throwing what she is doing in your face. Thats not love, its not even giving half a fuck about you. Move on. Sorry but you know me well, Im not going to mollycoddle my words, Im a woman, if a woman cares for a guy she will not fuck two guys then tell him. Its almost as if she is trying to get YOU to end it because she doesnt want to do it herself. She is mugging you off. Have more respect for yourself than that. Dont be so damn grateful you have some younger hot girlfriend, being hot on the outside doenst mean you are nice on the inside. Get rid, get punting and you will meet someone else but hopefully someone who will treat you a lot better than this woman is. Dump. If you dont want to dump and be alone then start looking for miss right now whilst you have the freedom to do it. She is out there somewhere. Dont settle for being treated like that.

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Re read what you wrote but imagine its another guy posting it, it might put into perspective what is happening. I dont know the situation, I dont know how you "helped"  her but a user is a user and Im smelling user. Ive seen enough of them around and about in my lifetime. Plus, if you love her you wouldnt be a little upset, you would be absolutley devestated, if she loved you she wouldnt have fucked someone else. Perhaps you have more of an "arrangement" than a real soul mate relationship in which case then just get punting till she gets home

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Even though I'm jaded and usually think the worst of people when it comes to relationships, I can't help but feel you're being taken for a ride (literally and figuratively). I refuse to believe she loved you but would bareback someone else behind your back. If she truly loved you, why would she have not waited to be with you if she really wanted "skin on skin"?

I don't think you should hope she'd learn to respect herself, you should respect yourself and not allow yourself to continue being treated like a doormat. 

Should you tell her you punted? If not, perhaps you don't love and respect her as much as you think you do if you can't be honest with her...

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The first "cuckolded" punter of 2016 then who has not read the many previous posts over the years on these issues

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I am a cynic and a negative thinker. These negative traits have held me back in life, they have also kept me safe. They have kept me squeegeeing my third eye. Although no man owns a womans sex life  from what what i have read it  sounds like several women I have met over the years and your third eye defo needs a Squeegee. Narcissistic manipulative users can never be corrected with kindness it needs many years of Psychotherapy. you will never win with them never. Punt squeegee that third eye take her for what she appears to be if u want her in  your life but never expect a genuine organic relationship. it wont happen. 

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I am a cynic and a negative thinker. These negative traits have held me back in life, they have also kept me safe. They have kept me squeegeeing my third eye. Although no man owns a womans sex life  from what what i have read it  sounds like several women I have met over the years and your third eye defo needs a Squeegee. Narcissistic manipulative users can never be corrected with kindness it needs many years of Psychotherapy. you will never win with them never. Punt squeegee that third eye take her for what she appears to be if u want her in  your life but never expect a genuine organic relationship. it wont happen. 

 

 

Thank you Painter.

I am much the same in my way of thinking on this matter, though I do love a good challenge in life and this one seems to have been one that was handed to me on a golden platter and despite everything has kept me very satisfied for so long. However, I have always been aware of the deep rooted psychological issues that this girl has, and I know that they are not all the result of her being an Escort at all. Low self worth and esteem are issues that can be corrected with patience when correctly addressed and perhaps I just needed this difficult challenge in my life when I met her. 

Having said that, I fully realise that to expect any full time permanent commitment from her would be foolish in the extreme, but its enjoying the challenges of the next few years and the for those amazing times that we do have when we are together that keeps this fire burning. As for punting, yes I will continue this excellent hobby once again, then maybe consider my options when she does return into my life. I certainly have nor ever did have any long term expectations of her, because deep inside I too have no wish for a permanent live in partner. When she does return, I will consider what happens then depending upon on how I then feel and the obviously the results of her Sexual Health screen, but in the meantime, I think the best thing I can do is leave her to her own misfortunes and think only of myself once again, for a change. :) 
 

 

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Sorry, skin on skin and craving the attention from you she misses. Bullshit, she is a mouse away and having fun with the play knowing full well that mr knight in shining armour wants to believe her when she says she didnt enjoy it. She is literally throwing what she is doing in your face. Thats not love, its not even giving half a fuck about you. Move on. Sorry but you know me well, Im not going to mollycoddle my words, Im a woman, if a woman cares for a guy she will not fuck two guys then tell him. Its almost as if she is trying to get YOU to end it because she doesnt want to do it herself. She is mugging you off. Have more respect for yourself than that. Dont be so damn grateful you have some younger hot girlfriend, being hot on the outside doenst mean you are nice on the inside. Get rid, get punting and you will meet someone else but hopefully someone who will treat you a lot better than this woman is. Dump. If you dont want to dump and be alone then start looking for miss right now whilst you have the freedom to do it. She is out there somewhere. Dont settle for being treated like that.

 

 

 

My how I have missed you Chloe !!!

You don't mince your words and say it like it is, warts and all as always !!  :)

I know you are so right on this, and maybe because of all my punting experience I actually did get what I desired - well on the outside anyway, and in my bed, however you are 100% right on this. A pretty exterior can sometimes hide a very dark and damaged inside. I always knew that but had faith in my ability to heal and repair being that Knight in Shining Armour- a role that I have always been burdened with in this life ! LOL.... But after so many years I did start to realise that no amount of care, love or effort is enough for some people, and they can never change, because deep down they just do not choose to even try. I am well aware of the futility of what I am doing and yes it sometimes does drain me...Its just that I don't like failing or giving up without a good fight , and I'm just to stubborn to let go !!!

And, yes, I may appear to everyone as being 'mugged off' by her now, and perhaps not for the first time tbh. Although I will admit you are so spot on with what you say, it has not been without its fair share of absolutely amazing times though, times that  certainly rank as the best I have ever had in my life  - and I have been so lucky to have so much freedom and happiness in my life before I met her. 

Sometimes I think we all have to occasionally experience Hell in order to feel the true highs of Heaven on this earth- or so my experience with this girl has proved to me.
That is why it just makes it so difficult to severe the ties permanently - its a huge dilemma for me, always has been.

But I know deep down I just do not want a full time relationship in any normal sense of the word at all, because I enjoy my own company for long periods and could never put up with the constant mess of an untidy girl, or anyone else for that matter.... LOL

So I'm coming back to Punting for now, and I'll see what happens if it happens, but its definitely time to turn off the Knight Switch fully down now. It has been set a lot lower recently anyway, and she still stuck around and didn't give up where years ago she would have, so it will be interesting to see if she actually returns when its turned off fully :wacko:

Thank you Darling :wub:

I do hope things are going well for you Chloe XXX

 

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11 hours ago, Chloe Kisses said:

Re read what you wrote but imagine its another guy posting it, it might put into perspective what is happening. I dont know the situation, I dont know how you "helped"  her but a user is a user and Im smelling user. Ive seen enough of them around and about in my lifetime. Plus, if you love her you wouldnt be a little upset, you would be absolutley devestated, if she loved you she wouldnt have fucked someone else. Perhaps you have more of an "arrangement" than a real soul mate relationship in which case then just get punting till she gets home

Thank you Chloe,

Sorry,  I have replied to you in my other comment but as I am so rusty to this forum now and out of practice [as I am with my punting :lol: ] I bungled my quotes in the reply:)  X 

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7 hours ago, HoneyBadger said:

Even though I'm jaded and usually think the worst of people when it comes to relationships, I can't help but feel you're being taken for a ride (literally and figuratively). I refuse to believe she loved you but would bareback someone else behind your back. If she truly loved you, why would she have not waited to be with you if she really wanted "skin on skin"?

I don't think you should hope she'd learn to respect herself, you should respect yourself and not allow yourself to continue being treated like a doormat. 

Should you tell her you punted? If not, perhaps you don't love and respect her as much as you think you do if you can't be honest with her...

Thanks HB, 

Yes I can see why you say what you say, and yes, maybe I did let myself get taken for a ride, but it's a ride I enjoy way too much ;) 
But the babeback sex has always been my biggest issue with her and she knows it. Considering she was an Escort for 2 years I do find her irresponsible behaviour hard to swallow [:rolleyes:] and it just completely makes her look stupid, and doesn't do much for my image either in taking her back. I have always had to force her to screened also, but it doesn't get away from the fact that she is just playing a game of Russian roulette, and that just highlights her disrespect for me, not to mention herself. !

Yes, I think I will be tell her I am punting again until she gets back. She may be wound up, hurt and upset - or she may end what we have finally. But at least then she may finally realise what it feels like when someone you care about is unfaithful and open about it [I'm actually quite used to that, but she isn't], and that it was only her actions that pushed me to the point of doing it.
I will also make a point of reminding her that at least one of us will be 'playing safe' and considering the health of the other ! 

 

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I don't understand, did you post this in order to get advice on how to end it or something else? 

I can't understand why you would stay with someone who is very clearly messing you about and has no regard for your feelings whatsoever. She's mugging you off, why continue to let her? You deserve someone who actually wants a relationship and doesnt take the piss with you. 

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Well you got free punts for 3 years - dont expect lightning to strike again.

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14 minutes ago, lancelot said:

Well you got free punts for 3 years - dont expect lightning to strike again.

Exactly Lancelot, , and  I certainly wouldn't   :D

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9 hours ago, puntaprima said:

Exactly Lancelot, , and  I certainly wouldn't   :D

have just read your main post properly - her actions do not tend to suggest she has any desire to continue a monogomous relationship or otherwise with you and you should free her and yourself.

we have had so many amazing times and travelled to many countries together

can I ask to what extent you funded her over those 3 years? how did she earn money if she was not escorting?

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I will be blunt:-

There's a huge difference between being a gentleman, and being a doormat

 

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15 hours ago, puntaprima said:

Thanks HB, 

Yes I can see why you say what you say, and yes, maybe I did let myself get taken for a ride, but it's a ride I enjoy way too much ;) 
But the babeback sex has always been my biggest issue with her and she knows it. Considering she was an Escort for 2 years I do find her irresponsible behaviour hard to swallow [:rolleyes:] and it just completely makes her look stupid, and doesn't do much for my image either in taking her back. I have always had to force her to screened also, but it doesn't get away from the fact that she is just playing a game of Russian roulette, and that just highlights her disrespect for me, not to mention herself. !

Yes, I think I will be tell her I am punting again until she gets back. She may be wound up, hurt and upset - or she may end what we have finally. But at least then she may finally realise what it feels like when someone you care about is unfaithful and open about it [I'm actually quite used to that, but she isn't], and that it was only her actions that pushed me to the point of doing it.
I will also make a point of reminding her that at least one of us will be 'playing safe' and considering the health of the other ! 

 

Sadly - there are too many of us in todays world that would accept any level of shoddy disrespect in return for sex.

As for having her screened - if you were doing BB with her no amount of screening would protect you and indeed you would have been playing RR as much as her.

Sounds to me like she is fucking her way through all the dandies on board the cruiser where she is working. She is probably working her way up to doing the captain.

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